Panic attack (triggered by paperwork)

I: A scientist is someone who endlessly studies the facts, the "why" and "how".

II: An artist is someone who translates their world for others to experience.

III: Both often experience infinite curiosity.

IV: Sometimes one is both a scientist and an artist.

V: Forever searching out the "why"s, and blending their mind to create something others will understand.

VI: Most just want to be seen and understood, as this artist does.

VII: Enter the world and mind of a transmasc nonhuman living in a human body.

VIII: Please understand that all found herein is subject to interpretation.

IX: May your world be the richer for peering through these strange and intense glasses.

It’s hard to breathe

my heartbeat runs irregularly

if I wasn’t in better control

I’d regret a lot right now.

Thankfully, I’m just laying

seemingly calm, still,

but for the rivers running

and hands trembling…

chest rapidly rising and falling.

Pain in my core spreads

chills, tremors, tingling…

I’ve been on edge for days,

all it took were questions

that made me think of

the past I’ve been trying

so fucking hard to forget.

A Flittering Flame